Thoughts from the Weekend

  1. It is so great how much rain we have been getting in southern California. I can’t even recall a time where we’ve gotten the amount of rain that we have this winter.
  2. People LOVE to pressure you to drink. I already knew this but it’s so weird how people do this. My boyfriend and I went to a 21st birthday party on Saturday and neither of us felt like drinking that night. I am not kidding when I say that almost everyone came up to us and asked “Why aren’t you drinking??!!” or “Let me make you a drink!” or “Come on!! take a shot with meeeee.” I felt like I was committing a crime because people were so concerned about the fact that we weren’t drinking, even though we were enjoying ourselves without any alcohol. I never have understood why people have such a strong urge to pressure other people to drink. If you want to drink, I have no problem with it and I’m not saying I’ll never drink again but that particular night I just didn’t feel like it.
  3. I was supposed to go to Disneyland on Friday buuuuut it was pouring rain, so it was mutually decided that it probably wouldn’t be very fun to stand in lines in the rain. So we’re postponing the trip until this Friday. Yay.
  4. We finally got our sh*t together and took down our Christmas tree.
  5. I saw “Patriot’s Day” and it was sooo good. I thoroughly enjoyed it and shed a bunch of tears.                                                                                                                                                       All in all, I had a good weekend. What did YOU do this weekend?!

Who Am I Without My Past Eating-Disorders?

In my “About Me” section and in past posts, I’ve given so much power to my previous eating-disorders and talked as if my eating-disorders are all that I’m about. Although having struggles with food in the past has/is definitely been a prominent part of my life, it is not all I am. I am more than my eating-disorders. I’d like to tell you more about who I am as a person.

I have a big heart. I am an extremely caring person and empathetic person. I care way too much about others and can feel others’ emotional pain, almost as if it’s my own. I get told that I’m “too nice” all the time. I cry often during movies and TV shows. I smile all the time and laugh a lot (and loudly). I think basic manners, like saying “please” and “thank you” are extremely important. I’m vegan because I love animals and I don’t agree with supporting such a cruel industry. I have a dog and a cat whom I love dearly. I love my parents and my older brother. I love my boyfriend, and we’ve been together 2.5 years. I love to train and lift weights. I’m an introvert. I want to either go to nursing school and get my BSN or a Bachelor’s in nutritional science. I rarely drink and don’t really like to party or go to bars. I love to be outdoors and do things like hiking and camping. Training and working out is my therapy and I love being strong.

There’s more to me than a history of eating disorders.



Snap back to reality, oh there goes gravity…

Hey hey! I’m home from an AMAZING vacay in Corolla, North Carolina. I wish I could go back, I miss my cousins, aunts & uncles already 😦 Going from a house with 24 people to a house with 4 is such a drastic change. It’s so quiet at my house compared to how it was, and I miss there being people to talk to and there ALWAYS being something going on. I also miss the fact that the most important decision I had to make everyday was whether to go to the beach or the pool first. aaah, that was the life.

Before I left I posted healthy travel tips. Truth is, I ate pretty much nothing but junk the whole vacation, and only really exercised twice. And even though I did gain some weight, I’m fine with that. Because you know what? I had a great time. Obviously, I’m not going to continue eating chocolate chip pancakes and, tortilla chips, and brownies everyday. This vacation seemed to be exactly what I needed on my mission to let go of my harsh eating rules, and it was very refreshing! I actually felt like a normal eater, and ate what the rest of my family was eating (except meat, of course).

Here are some miscellaneous pics from my week in the Outer banks:



1. The view from deck at our beach house. The beach was just a short walk away.

2. Two of my cousins & I out on the deck.

3. A day at the beach (I’m in the corner 😉

4. Again at the beach with two of my cousins

5. Our family photo. Each individual family, 5 families total–my dad has 4 siblings, wore a certain color (well actually 2 families ended up in navy blue somehow…). My family was in yellow, but since my brother couldn’t make the trip this week due to work, we only had 3 yellows 😦

6. Chillin’ in the pool. This picture could have been taken any day of the week. Those floating things were seriously the BEST.

7. Go-karting. I still don’t understand why driving cars that go waaaay slower than actual cars are worth while. These cars probably went about 20 mph but were so dang fun, maybe because I was racing with the majority of my family.

Oh and my family and I are looking into rental houses for next year already and are considering different areas. We have done North Carolina for the past 4 years. If anyone has any recommendations for vacation homes that can accomodate about 23 people, that would be great. Preferably places that are near a lake, river or ocean. We want to try new places, but it’s hard to find homes that can fit all of us, so let me know! 😀

Do you have a annual family vacation? What’s your favorite vacation spot thus far?

5 reasons why I LOVE Summer…

This title of this post is actually kind of misleading. It makes it seem like summer is my favorite season, but it’s really not. I like cold weather (and because I live in Los Angeles cold weather to me is about 60 degrees). So here are a few reasons why I actually like summer:

1. I can mow the lawn in a bathing suit top and yoga shorts and not be questioned, because it’s so damn hot.


2. I can make sun tea!!! Seriously, so good. and easy. Put a couple tea bags in a jug and let it sit in the sun for a few hours. Then, add ice and drink. If drinking sun tea doesn’t say summer to you, then I don’t know what does. (Now that I think about this, I really could make sun tea at pretty much any time of the year, but making it in the summer is the best).


3. I actually have time to read books that are not a Psychology, Philosophy, United States History, Art History, or Statistics text book.


I’m reading Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, in case you were wondering 😉


4. Going to the beach/Santa Monica Pier/Venice (Again, I could go to these places at any time of the year, but it’s better in the summer).


My Uncle & I on Thursday Night 

5. And my favoritefavoritefavorite thing about summer… is our annual, week-long family vacation to The Outerbanks in North Carolina (OBX!). My dad and his four siblings (and their families), which makes a grand total of 23 people(5 are the siblings, the other 5 are spouses, and the other 13 are the offspring aka my cousins, brother and I), rent a beach house. It’s pure insanity. but literally the best week ever. I’m not lying when I say that there is never a dull moment. Here is a picture from two years ago, of my 11 cousins, my brother and I. It’s two years old because and not everyone is in it because, as you can imagine, it is difficult to round up and get a picture of 23 people at once. Image

….and there you go. I’ve got to go because Harry Potter is calling my name.

What is YOUR favorite thing about summer?