Oh my god. I just looked at my blog and saw my last post was from August 22. WHAT. First off, I want to apologize for being so absent, but I’ve been going through some stuff.
I’ve kind of been avoiding my blog. I know, I suck. But I’ve been having a really tough time these past two months. I’ve been clobbered with school work and my job. I’ve been so stressed out and feel like I have no time to do anything for myself. I have adopted a really nasty way to cope with all this stress, unfortunately. I have developed BED (Binge Eating Disorder). It’s kind of ironic, isn’t it? I’m claiming to be a “healthy living blogger” yet I have dabbled with orthorexia and now this. Although I’m embarrassed (and have gained about 10 pounds in the last 3 months), I’m swallowing my pride because I need help and advice from you guys, please!
At first, my binges were more sporadic and random. I didn’t think anything of it. But lately, it has been happening a few times a week, typically at night. When I come home from work, I have no self control and eat until I’m so full that I feel nauseous. And then of course, I feel disgusting and bloated. Every time I binge I think about how gross I feel and tell myself that it won’t happen again; yet, in the next few days it happens again, and the cycle continues. My trigger foods are cereal with milk and peanut butter. Kinda weird, I know.
Anyways, I just wanted to update you guys. I’m going to start writing posts again because I miss you guys! And maybe you guys can help me get through this.
Talk to you again soon. I promise.
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